Yesterday I went swimming with some friends. It has been a really long time since I last swam, so I had forgotten what it felt like. It was a good swim, and I thought about this while swimming: Earlier on I had been thinking about how to feel the energy flow more in my body, and then I went swimming. The flow of the water felt like how the energies flow in my body, just that it was much more pronounced. So this will be one of the ways I can actually try to ‘feel’ the energy more. I remembered that swimming really helped my aikido and vice versa when I was still practicing it.

Anyway, later on was hanging out with my friends, and then we decided impromptu, to qt one of knees. And it was an interesting experience, as I had told her that she could go ahead and do her work on her laptop, while I qt her. So I started, and she was typing away at her laptop. As I am still a newbie, I had to close my eyes to concentrate, and then I started my breathing. After some time, it became silent. I realised that and just opened my eyes to take a peek, and saw my friend’s eyes closed too, and she’d stopped typing. I thought she fell asleep. I was feeling sleepy myself, and I guess the position was a little uncomfortable as I was feeling some pins and needles in my hands. But I am still not sure if it is just that the sensation is changing because of the energy, or it’s that I was in a bad position. In any case, we were in a rather public place, so I stopped after about 10 minutes.

Later on, she told me she did feel better, and that she just started to follow my breathing after a while. And she said that she felt something twitching, and there was quite a bit of sensation earlier on, but after some time it subsided. Well I have to admit, I was getting distracted. Being the kind of person with a rather short attention span, I can’t sit still for too long. That’s something I have to work on. Anyway I am just glad that there was some effect. Will be working on her other knee soon, and I know that the session is not over anyway.

So I have just completed my Quantum touch workshop over the weekend! It was a good experience, even though I have already read the book as I wasn’t sure if I was doing the right thing in the book. As it was a small group, we had the workshop in Yvonne’s house. It was very cosy, I really liked the sofa :p I was the only gal there, but the guys were all nice and friendly. All of us have had some kind of experience with energy; aikido, meditation, reiki, etc. So there was a lot of sharing with the instructor as well as with some of the participants who have done several modalities of energy work. I felt like a real newbie listening to all their stories, just trying to make sense of the mind boggling stories.

So some things I’ve discovered about myself:

• I have a lot of self doubt. I do believe in energy healing, but for some reason, I have some mental block that I can’t really do it. There’s this little voice inside that keeps asking am I doing it right? Is anything even happening?
• I have attachment to the outcome. Which is related to the first point. I guess it is old programming that I have to deal with. Got to read that book about things we say to ourself unconsciously.

Some strange things that happened:

• When the Yvonne(my instructor) and bernie was going around charging out chakras, I heard buzzing or whirring sounds. I know it wasn’t the aircon or something else. I also heard a sort of ‘zap’ and turned around to see Yvonne moving her hands around another participant’s chakras.
• During the chakra meditation, I was ’seeing’ patterns sort of like dancing in my mind’s eye. It was weird and I strained to see the patterns. but when I did, the patterns kind of faded, so I had to relax more. Again, letting go.
• While practicing on each other, some of the participants felt the little ball of light bouncing around. I didn’t really feel that, but I generally felt a lot of vibrations, and some got quite strong it felt like my ‘client’ was trembling. He told me later he thought I was trembling.
• My wine, when we did the wine charging thing, tasted stronger then the original!

Reflection

I have a lot of letting go to do. Much as I feel that I am relatively relaxed as compared to my peers, on a personal level it is not enough. I still have this part of me that wants to be in control and tries hard. And then this other part that is willing to just leave it to God. I do see a lot of signs that God leaves me along the way, and it never fails to make me feel warm and fuzzy inside. But I do wish to be even more open to His guidance and plans.

So more work to be done. I want to go for the QT certified practitioner, but am just wondering how to get the hours clocked in. It is strange to ask people if they’d like a session for something I just learnt :p But I’ll work it out somehow I know.

Oh, just a sidenote. I managed to pass my SAP BP-ERP exam! It was really a blessing as we only had 3 days after the course to study, and because of the workshop, I technically only had one day. But I had asked God earlier, if I should still carry on, and I got a ‘yes’, so I just held my breath and went for both. Honestly, I was worried about my exam throughout the workshop, but I tried not to think too much about it, and have faith that God will carry me through. On the day of the exam itself, I was starting to panic, but I breathed, and prayed. And just before I submitted my answers, I prayed.(It was an online exam) And then the results came in and I passed! I couldn’t believe it, but phew! After that I just thanked God for helping me not be too stressed out throughout those days.

So this is me and what I enjoy learning about. This will be a blog about my experiences and thoughts on energy. I do believe that we all have something we are meant to find out about ourselves and our path in this life.

When I was little, I’ve always been fascinated with plants and animals. Science was one of my favourite subjects, and I was always curious and excited about learning more about nature. One of my favourite books was “My Family and other animals” by Gerald Durrell. A little older and I began looking into how plants can aid us in our health. I was never really encouraged in that direction though, so it sort of faded as more ‘important’ topics were covered in school.

Then growing up, I took on Aikido in my university days. I didn’t actually know what it was about, a friend asked me, and I felt like I should join her, and so we went. I didn’t get a black belt or anything, neither did I pursue it, but I was introduced to this concept of ‘ki’. A little later on, I took on yoga and learnt about ‘prana’, which is a little strange to me still as I was never the sort to be still for even a few minutes. But be still in yoga I did, and it’s a part of my life now.

While all this was going on, the green stuff was slowly creeping it’s way back into my life. It came back in various ways: several plants and flowers were my subjects when I got interested in photography, I started drinking tea and herbal infusions, at work they made us take home little pots of plants that I still keep after a long time.

Later on I learnt about the Silva method, and went for the basic lecture series. I learnt more about meditation, and tried to practice it daily. Situations in my life made me search for something, I wasn’t sure what either. I read the bible more, prayed a whole lot more and continued searching. I read more, learnt about intuition, learnt more about our relationship with our body, other people, and of course the earth.

So that’s a little about this part of me. This weekend, I’ll be going for a quantum touch workshop and am very excited about it! I hope to capture some of my experience here in this blog and share them with whoever is interested.